BloGiE

Its sunday and its supposed 2 be a holiday…but with all the work dat i need 2 do i dont feel like a hols at all….feeling a bit lost at de moment…there’s so much things in my mind dat i cant arrange myself properly….i talk 2 my sis yesterday n found out dat my mum was in de hospital last monday n i was shock for not knowing it….it wasnt a seriuous one but enough 2 make me worried…although she’s ok now but dis is not de 1st time….i knew somethings not right yesterday n tot dat i just need 2 give a call 2 my family back in msia….end up with a bad news..but i’m glad she has recover…

assigment need 2 be submit by tmrw n i am so x in de mood of writing…i just need some time break to settle some stuff….blogging is a good way 2 release it i guess…

at dis very moment, i really need my frens…manage to talk 2 een yesterday n she comfort me a lil…thanks een….i want to talk 2 sheera n asma as well but couldnt afford 2 do it….muni is way in uk….so cant reach her as well….amelia…also x in…i want  to be in msia…there’s everyone there to be with me…those who understand me….if only u understand me….

such a bad sunday….here’s a lyrics to decribe my sunday…

Gloomy Sunday - Sarah McLachlan

Sunday is Gloomy,
My hours are slumberless,
Dearest, the shadows I live with are numberless
Little white flowers will never awaken you

Not where the black coach of sorrow has taken you
Angels have no thought of ever returning you
Would they be angry if I thought of joining you
Gloomy Sunday

Sunday is gloomy
with shadows I spend it all
My heart and I have decided to end it all
Soon there’ll be flowers and prayers that are sad,
I know, let them not weep,
Let them know that I’m glad to go

Death is no dream,
For in death I’m caressing you
With the last breath of my soul I’ll be blessing you
Gloomy Sunday

Dreaming
I was only dreaming
I wake and I find you
Asleep in the deep of
My heart
Dear

Darling I hope that my dream never haunted you
My heart is telling you how much I wanted you
Gloomy Sunday

dis time i’m writing in blog n not a message *winkwink*

today is de 3rd day of puasa…n its 5 in de morning…after sahur i didnt go back 2 sleep as i’m afraid dat i might not be able to wake up on time for class…hehe…not dat my class is dat early anyway…i’ve been missin a few classes lately due 2 waking up late..hehe…my fault…i noe…

this is very strange….i’ve never been able 2 stay awake in de morning…i’m so x a morning person… sleepin is like heaven 2 me but i’m just nnot sleepy…n i dunno wether its good or not… not just dat…i can write better in de morning…its like my mood is into writing…but not exactly academic stuff…hehe…but dat can help…specially since i have 2 submit my reflective piece dis fri…so yeah…shud be a good thing..

its has only been 3 days by i feel like we have been fasting for a few weeks…haha..poyoness…
we have start regulate our cooking schedule…so evryone will cook once a week n help someone cook another day….shah n rai will b joining us in weekends…n mayb nisa might come 2….but for weekdays…its just us..de ppl in 118…yesterday hani cook ikan sumbat…such a nice meal…n de day b4 dat we ate kuetiew with buah melaka….i’m cookin 2day n i plan 2 make kurma ayam….hopefully it goes well..i havent been cookin for a while n i think i’ve lost de touch of cookin..hehe…alasan…n i’m gonna do sayur kacang panjang…yummy…naz is helpin me 2day…
i tot of making some jelly but didnt have de time 2 do it yet….tgk la..bila rajin nnt…

almost 6 n is sooo damn cold…the weather have change drastically dis few days…last week..its wa almost 20 degree n yet yesterday the highest was 8…n right now i’m freezing…hani just switch off de heater  coz it makes de room dry…so in order not 2 be easily thirsty we decided 2 switch off de heater…my hands are numb…

better start my real essay now…..

hehe..dis is a new song by nidji….nice lyrics but not related 2 my life…just love the song…thanks 2 najjib now i’m addicted 2 dis song…huhu…blame other ppl

Hapus Aku - Nidji

Kutuliskan kesedihan
Semua tak bisa kau ungkapkan
Dan kita kan bicara dengan hatiku

Buang semua puisi
Antara kita berdua
Kau bunuh dia sesuatu
Yang kusebut itu cinta

Reff:
Yakinkan aku Tuhan
Dia bukan milikku
Biarkan waktu waktu
Hapus aku…

Sadarkan aku Tuhan
Dia bukan milikku
Biarkan waktu waktu
Hapus aku…

Saturday mornin….its stil early fo a non-class day to wake up at this time but i guess i’m used 2 wake up so early that i cant sleep anymore….waiting for my turn 2 used the toilet…i tot i was the first but when i reach de toilet door, noh had just enter and i have 2 wait…how bout other ppl? de rest are stil asleep…or at least stil in their blanket n not wanting 2 get out of bed…hahaha..i’ve passed that period…i’ve been awake since 7 smthg n i was in my blanket..doin nothin for almost n hour…hehe… den i gave a wake up call to someone but he went back 2 sleep…..ceh.. buat penat je… but nvmd.. at least i did my part…waking up ppl…:)….

- taking bath -

yeah…i’m fresh now… i’m ready for de day!!…hahaha poyonyer…like there’s gonna be sm big event. there’s prata day 2day at longbeach but i’m x sure wether i’m goin or not…basically ada roti canai je… ntah la…tetiba rasa cam x de lah kemaruk nk roti canai sgt…mayb coz i noe i’m goin back 2 msia soon…den i can eat roti canai as much as i want…Yeay!!!

cant wait to go back…countdown..exactly another 2 months 2 go…waaahh…makna nyer exam lagi sebulan la…aduh…dah cuak balik…forgot about goin back n exam 1st…dah la dis yer x dpt raya btul2 coz exam masa raya…ape nak buat…cobaan…(pendekar bujang lapuk style)

i havent been puting much lyrics lately….here’s a song that i like and just heard it frm my mr labu….

INCUBUS-I MISS YOU

To see you when I wake up
Is a gift I didn’t think could be real.
To know that you feel the same as I do
is a three-fold, utopian dream.

You do something to me that I can’t explain.
so would I be out of line if i said,
I miss you

I see your picture,
I smell your skin on the empty pillow, next to mine.
You have only been gone ten days,
but already I’m wasting away.

I know I’ll see you again
whether far or soon.
But I need you to know that I care.
and, I miss You.

its almost 3 in de morning and i’m still wide awake…malaysian night is comin soon n i’m a bit restless…since i’m one of de mc…i cant help but thinking that i might screw thgs up…sigh…hopefully not lah….

holidays is almost finish..2 more days to go…n back 2 the packed schedule….thats de life of a medical student…u can never run from a lot of workload…but its not just de medical student…all students are de same….its a matter  of how u manage ur time….n thats de hardest part in life… n yet i’m having trouble wif procastinating my work n organising my schedule….hehe…blame no one…

sitting alone in my room make me start thinking about whats happening in my life…a lot of things had change….how much do i change??? i’m not sure… i shud stop missing people in msia as its been more than 6 months dat i’ve been here…no more homesick…but when ur alone..u easily feel de emptiness and u cant help but thinking about ur frens dat u have spent a lot of times together… but theres no harm in missing them right… hehe…. miss talkin 2 them late at night…

if only i can talk to u…but ur not here…ur soundly asleep…. n i’m awake…. wish u were here…

missin my mr pumpkin

spring break has started but i dont feel like holiday at all….there are so much things dat i need 2 do…msian night is comin up soon n i hv 2 get ready for that…specially since i’m gonna be de mc n at de same time in charge of the program…if de program doesnt run smoothly, i kinda feel dat i’m supposed 2 be blame…i noe2…its x just my fault but i didnt do much in MSS so i hope dis time evrythg went well as i dont wanna be a fool on dat night either…

school work…thats a never ending workload…it keeps comin n comin…1 after another…did my KFP program last fri n it was awesome….de mother has given birth 2 a cute baby girl name stella…seh was so tiny…i can barely see her nails…sigh…wish i can spent more time with stella but her mother was havin enuf trouble wif de baby …we didnt wanna 2 bother her dat much…ahaha

2 days of holidays has passed…n wat did i do…nothin…sitting in my room…lepaking with nisa n jess n smtimes with kev skali… in de room, dee n hani busy wif their work…dont wanna disturb them anyway…najjib gonna go for a field trip dis whole week, noh n siddiq…i dunno…naz is busy wif his experiment..n smtime goin out to i dunno where n not bother x noe anyway…so basically dat will be my holidays routine…wat a boring life huh???

as usual…i missin my family n fren back in msia….our hse fon is x workin so i cant call me mama…:( dah la last week ckp kejap je ngan mak..den dis week x leh ckp lak…cedih nyer…
amy, een…busy in uni….muni…x tau dah fly ke lum 2 uk…cedih x dpt hanta..dah la lama x borak2…muni!!!! miss u so much….sheera!!! i’ll be meeting u soon…hehe…asma..u stil mcm oren…hehehe….n de rest of ppl i’m missin…(kys n intec ppl)

missin missin missin missin………………… hmmmmm……….